Hmmmm!!

Life has been frustrating, hard, and VERY tiring lately for our family.. On Friday it will be 6 weeks since we took Trent into the hospital and 6 weeks since we have been there. It is such a joke, I am TOO tired and emotional to write what is going on... please please continue to pray for Trent and our Family- we have appreciated your LOVE and support:

"There are three parts to the plan. You are in the second or the middle part, the one in which you will be tested by temptation, by trials, perhaps by tragedy......

"Remember this! The line 'And they all lived happily ever after' is never written into the second act [of a play]. That line belongs in the third act, when the mysteries are solved and everything is put right. ....

"Until you have a broad perspective of the eternal nature of [the plan], you won't make much sense out of the inequities in life. Some are born with so little and others with so much. Some are born in poverty, with handicaps, with death, even innocent children. There are the brutal, unforgiving forces of nature and the brutality of man to man. We have seen a lot of that recently.

"Do not suppose that God willfully causes that which, for His own purposes, he permits. When you know the plan and the purpose of it all, even these things will manifest a loving Father in Heaven" (The Play and the plan [satellite broadcast, 7 May 1995], 1-2).

President Boyd K. Packer of the Quorum of the Twelve

Flashback Friday...

I will never forget when this picture was taken.. it was in the Cottonwood mall in a little photo booth. I love this picture- it was so fun to be with my Mom and Danica and have this cute picture taken. My Mom is a WONDERFUL person, I LOVE my MOM SO much.. This stuff with Trent really gets me worried for her health.

I will never forget in 1997 when she was in heart failure, I thinks she recieved a broken heart when her best friend Cheryl passed away from cancer. My Mom is such a care giver, no matter her tiredness or weakness she never shows it and she just keeps on going... My Mom is a HARD worker, she is amazing and can do SO many things- this women can cook up a hearty meal, grow flowers (that i love), she must have given me the knack.. She can sew ANYTHING- I have been blessed to have both my daughters blessing dress as well as my bro and sister in laws kids and many more out there made by my mom.

My Mom is just a helper in all aspects, she is just the greatest they come; I was so blessed when I had Danica and Bryhn to have her by my side, there is just something about feeling crappy and going through something scary to want your Mom; I know how Trent must feel at nights when his Mom and Dad are gone. My Mom took care of our really good friend who died of AIDS.. There is one thing about my Mom, she has taught us kids to have UNCONDITIONAL LOVE for EVERYONE! I am blessed with this and my kids are starting to understand it as well. Thanks Mom for ALWAYS being there, for taking care of Danica when she was just out of the NICU because I had to go back to work- My Dad and Mom were so generous to make time for my little one. I LOVE YOU MOM!!!

Kindergarten 2008-2009...

I am a bit behind on my posts because of the situation with my sweet bro Trent, so we will be going back a month or so... Danica has a little sister Bryhn who sure looks up to her, I tell ya lately though- they sure like to fight.. Bryhn is really starting to hold her own, we feel blessed to have both of these miracles in our lives.

Here is Danica with the Principal, he is such a great guy and is out with the teachers loading and unloading the kids. Danica looks forward to running to him to give him a hug.. Danica has an amazing sense and has SO much love to give to others, Danica is a great kid.. As her teacher said "Danica is a Social Butterfly, the kids LOVE to listen to her more then me"...

Here is Mrs. Lewis, another teacher in Danica's class... It's great help to have her there as well as the parents that go and volunteer. I had the oppurtunity to be a volunteer many times and it was a great job to have!

Mrs. Tyler, I am SO nervous for next year since I do NOT know any of the teachers, I am not sure they can top Mrs. Tyler: WE LOVED Mrs. Tyler, this lady is amazing and even since school has been out Danica has cried for her, she wants her to be her teacher, I hope she will do good in the first grade!

Danica and her Friend Zac..

Look at these cute kids and how HARD they worked on there program, it was a great program with SO much time put into it..

CUTE KIDS!!!!

Danica waiting for ACTION!!

Danica's Science project, we were in a hurry to get her picture so we could listen to the rest of the projects, her's was awesome. I have it in my back log- it is fun and it would be fun for summer time!!

100 days, They had a party when they hit 100 days; her cute teacher took this picture.

I cannot belive my little 2 pound baby is now going to be in the first grade, how time goes fast; Danica is such a special girl and our Morning Star- we have truely been blessed, we love you Danica and are SO proud of the GREAT job you did in kindergarten, I am going to be SO sad when she is in first grade, I really enjoy being with my kids- my stomach hurts to think this will be Bryhn's last year of preschool.. I cannot even think about it or I will get a headache.

Thank You Heavenly Father for these 2 blessings in our lives.

Look At this Face...

Look at this face
 I know the years are showing
 Look at this life 
I still don't know where it's going
  I don't know much
 But I know I love you
 And that may be all I need to know 
 Look at these eyes 
They've never seen what mattered
 Look at these dreams
 So beat and so battered 
 I don't know much
 But I know I love you
 That may be 
all I need to know 
 So many questions
 still left unanswered
 So much 
I've never broken through 
 And when I feel you near me
 Sometimes I see so clearly 
The only truth I've ever known is
 me and you 
 Look at this man
 So blessed with inspiration
 Look at this soul
 Still searching for salvation
  I don't know much
 But I know I love you 
And that may be
 all I need to know 
 I don't know much
 But I know I love you
 That may be
 all I need to know 
 I don't know much
 But I know I love you
 That may be
 all there is to know 

I will never forget when I was little my Mom would always

cry to this song and

say that it

reminded her of Trent, through the years it has become a song I have also loved

and felt the connection...

So, I decided to post the words, it was sung by Linda

Ronstadt and Aaron Neville..

I really don't think many of you understand the love

we have for our Trent, he is such an amazing person and SO full of LIFE- I am not

sure I have ever met anyone who has loved life as much as Trent, he has such

determination and fight in him.

Yesterday was an ok day- it started out with many tears and for the past 35 days I do

not think there is one day there is not a tear from one of our eye's. Trent was taken

off the vent on Tuesday and one of his lung drains was also taken off, this was a big

day.. Then yesterday morning when my parents went to see him (as they were at the

hospital til 2am the night before).. My Mom said he was slouched over with this big

thing on his head, a fever and his heart rate in the 190 area (high), his blood

pressure was high as well.. I think at this point we were all lost and confused,

I cannot even imagine the feelings my little brother has, the pain he has endured.

It takes me back to Christ and how he died for us, how he was on the cross: nailed

mind you to the cross, thorns in his head, I know that Christ is feeling our pain

and the tears he senses, he knows how much we love Trent. Trent is his perfect being

these disabled children, adults, babies- they are more perfect then any of us. I see

them as our examples in life, how can one not love these amazing people. If you have

not had a Trent in your life I encourage you to go over and do volunteer work at

Jordan Valley in Midvale... Go somewhere where your heart can be touched. I LOVE YOU

TRENT.. I cannot imagine life without Trent, he has been me and my brothers life

since the day he was born. We did not go on vacations like the average family, Trent

was too critical with his seizures: I do not even care, Our vacations have been

enjoying EVERY minute of Trent, seeing his smile, looking at his face when he gets

his balloons, taking him for rides.. Life has been good- we have definantely been

blessed..

Trent was doing ok when I left, No real alarm, though everything is still touch and

go. We were scared yesterday.. My wonderful husband gave him a blessing and while

doing this Trent was not having spasms or moving at all- he was so calm. I love this

kid, I love my husband for being able to give him this blessing, as he has done so

many times. Trent, hold strong were all cheering for you.

What is GoInG On!!!

I have recieved many phone calls and e-mails asking me what is going on with Trent. Well here is a short update: Trent is still in ICU, he is doing ok- that is about the best I can say.. He has just recently in the past few days started to open his eye's and that is a big deal to us all. Last week they did take him back in and he did have to get 2 more drains put in the outside of his lungs and another drain inside of his liver.. They say the abscess was bigger then before.

So, now the mystery is! Why is he still fevering?? That we have yet to know. Were still working on this one. My Mom and Brother Jeremy go up in the mornings until about 2 or 3 and then me and my Dad take our turns from that time until we get kicked out for shift change at 7. Shift change goes from 7 to 8:30. Thanks for all the visitors, Cassidy Thanks for the darling card, it means so much to be surrounded by people who REALLY care. Thanks for the many prayers within our own religion as well as outside of our religion.

Trent is fighting.. Hopefully our month long stay will start to wind down.. I will post more as I know, It's really hard to post stuff and sometimes better to do so after, nobody really does understand the heartache and stress this is but WE LOVE TRENT.. He is so awesome and WE ARE BLESSED to have him in our lives.

Do YoU ReMeMbEr ThE TiMe!!!!

I had to post these pictures, with the passing of a great legend Michael Jackson I will never forget how much I LOVED to watch him perform and was SO excited when I got my Michael Jackson Barbie, the glove, the socks- it had it all.. My brother's were probably thinking... "Not another Barbie", I was the queen of Barbie's in fact I would probably still be playing with them if I did not have to grow up...

These were the days, me with my cute Brother's Dustin and Jeremy!!

Man in the Mirror.....

MICHAEL JACKSON

Ok, I am really not sure what the heck is going on this week.

I know that we all anticipated that Farrah Fawcett would eventually

pass away with her cancer but I really try to believe that one can actually fight a fight

and survive-

I atleast try and root for them and rally around them

As I sat in the hosptital with my Dad,

taking our turn to sit with my sweet brother

I recieved a text from my Aunt letting me know that Michael Jackson had died.

WHAT- Michael Jackson has ALWAYS been one of my favorite...

Between him and Whitney Houston I was so determined that one day I would be meeting

one or both, the closest I have come is to Whitney Houston's dancers,

Got there autograph and gave them my letter to

Whitney- So sad she has never responded (like she would).

So, yesterday brought such saddness to my world.

One for the fact that my brother has been in ICU for a month today, not a fun anniversary to be celebrating,

then to hear Farrah Fawcett had passed away and now the

KING OF POP- So, Sad.. I will never forget listening and Dancing to his wonderful

wonderful music. My best friend in Middle/High School Nanette Belka

ALWAYS LOVED Janet Jackson- she was such a good dancer,

there were so many good times around the Jackson music.

I will never forget the Michael Jackson Barbie I had asked for along with his records and Whitney Houston's records..

Such a sad day in music and entertainment, I am still in shock that MJ has passed away,

Rest in Peace Michael Jackson- may YOU finally find your spot and be ok with it..

Houston........Here WE come.......

I CANNOT WAIT.... THE WAIT IS ALMOST OVER....

Ok, So my FAVORITE singer in the world is Whitney Houston- most people who know me know that... So, as you know she has been "out" of the limelight for a while, well guess what- she is BACK.. WoooHooo!! September 1, 2009- is her RELEASE date of her new album that has been named and released as of TODAY- "I LOOK TO YOU", I am excited and could not be more on the count down then anyone-

An Angel has recieved her Wings!!

Farrah Fawcett was An ICON!!!!

Today while watching my favorite soap- The Young and The Restless there was breaking news that Farrah Fawcett had passed away... I felt sad and yet comfort for her! I cannot imagine how one's body has to deal with SO many types of medications and pain, as I watch Trent fight for his life and as I have watched other's fight there way to live but fought so hard that death going to the other side was SO much better.. Farrah fought the fight for a few years and I bet those few years were not easy and pain free.

I hope she has the comfort she deserves, Thanks Farrah for doing what you could to have patients rights respected.. It was so sad to watch her on vido not to long ago displaying what it was she was going through and how much she fought... Though I may not have agreed with EVERYTHING she did in life, I sure loved her.. I will NeVeR forget my LoViNg to watch ChArLiEs AnGeLs!!! I LOVED this show, I will never forget me and my 2 childhood friends Erin Treseder and Sarah Johnson on our bikes playing Charlies Angels- those were some good times in my life and I would not have had Charlie's Angel's fun times if it were never on.. 62 is such a young age- these things remind me over and over of what is important in life.. As I watch other's who worry so much about the Nice car, THE BIG house- the materialstic items that REALLY DO not matter....

Each time I make my way to the hospital and see my brother who is disabled lying there fighting for every breath and here many of us sit and worry about what brand of clothing were going to wear and drop a $100 for a pair of pants (I do not do that)... but I am sure I am guilty of many other things that Trent would want in his life.. He could not be happier for the life he has been given-- I hope to be able to say the same when it's all said and done..

With respect to Farrah and her Family- Rest in Peace and may you all have comfort at this time..

HaPpY FaThErS DaY!!!

How Father's Day began.............

Sonora Dodd, of Washington, first had the idea of a "father's day." She thought of the idea for Father's Day while listening to a Mother's Day sermon in 1909.

Sonora wanted a special day to honor her father, William Smart. Smart, who was a Civil War veteran, was widowed when his wife died while giving birth to their sixth child. Mr. Smart was left to raise the newborn and his other five children by himself on a rural farm in eastern Washington state.

After Sonora became an adult she realized the selflessness her father had shown in raising his children as a single parent. It was her father that made all the parental sacrifices and was, in the eyes of his daughter, a courageous, selfless, and loving man. Sonora's father was born in June, so she chose to hold the first Father's Day celebration in Spokane, Washington on the 19th of June, 1910.

President Calvin Coolidge, in 1924, supported the idea of a national Father's Day. Then in 1966 President Lyndon Johnson signed a presidential proclamation declaring the 3rd Sunday of June as Father's Day. President Richard Nixon signed the law which finally made it permanent in 1972.

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What Makes A Dad

God took the strength of a mountain, The majesty of a tree, The warmth of a summer sun, The calm of a quiet sea, The generous soul of nature, The comforting arm of night, The wisdom of the ages, The power of the eagle's flight, The joy of a morning in spring, The faith of a mustard seed, The patience of eternity, The depth of a family need, Then God combined these qualities, When there was nothing more to add, He knew His masterpiece was complete, And so, He called it ... Dad

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Happy Father's Day to my Wonderful Husband Shawn, To my Great Dad and to my brother's Dustin and Jeremy.. Though Jer is not a Father he is an AWESOME brother and uncle.. Thanks for all our support with Trent at such a hard time. Love you dads in our lives. Happy Father's Day to Shawn's Dad- Though we do not get to see him much we wish you a Happy Holiday as well..