4 months and still hurting....

Trent LOVED to wrestle with the kids.. The kids were Trent's life.

Trent Loved us all.. We know it, we felt it, we MISS it.

His SMILE "lit" UP the ROOM... What's not to love.

This picture was taken 1 year ago: November 14th, 2008

4 months ago my brother was taken from us. There is NOT one single day that I don't cry over his loss.. It's SO hard for me to post anything with his name or his picture. I am angry, very angry. One day when I can let it all out and express it to you I WILL.. Trent, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Life is just not the same, I wish that other's could understand. Were approaching all the firsts, and I cannot even begin to explain how bad it hurts. Why did our party have to be crashed- there is NO doubt the Thankfulness and opportunity we were given to have you in our lives..

I feel SO blessed to know that one day we will be able to be together again, I sometimes wonder how it will be to stand next to you and have you taller then me.. Sometimes I am scared because I LOVED the Trent you were even if it meant you in a wheel chair. Friday night my husband called me on his way home, I can always tell when there is something wrong or not right with him.. I kept asking him "Shawn, what's wrong", he would say "nothing, I am on my way home".. I would ask him again.. He broke down and said he missed Trent. Trenty do you know how much your loved... I am not really sure my pain will ever go away. It was SO hard losing the babies I have lost- but I have to admit this has broke my heart.

Thank You Trent for loving me, you loved me for who I was and you made my days be better..

I miss you brother.. I love you.

Thanksgiving Giveaway!

Thanks to myblogspark.com I am giving away a prize.. Please  share how you and your Family  make Thanksgiving fun or what You  like most about Thanksgiving?

I will then pick one person to win this prize

“Thanksgiving Fun” gift pack that includes a coupon for a free package of the Pillsbury Thanksgiving Shape® sugar cookies, as well as a turkey-shaped stress reliever, pencil, and finger puppet.

I will pick a winner on Monday... Good Luck... Please leave a comment.

Flashback Friday-

Here are the four of us eating breakfast together.... I was asked the other day by a friend in my neighborhood... Who in the Family was closest to Trent.. It's weird to hear that question because we were a family unit, Trent was our glue- if anything was wrong with him it was not just one person focusing on him- we ALL were by him every step of his way. I REALLY DON'T think many understand the love Trent gave to us.. He was such an AMAZING young man; I miss him so bad and I know other's in the Family are feeling the same way. So, here ya go- Trent may have been disabled but he was sure to be like the rest of us and we included him in that..

LIKE ALL OUR MESSY HAIR, oh wait... Mine wins by far

Disneyland / Disney on Ice Princess Classic

Thank You Friends, Family and Kosy 106.5 : click on this ...

        

WOW- WE are PreTTy eXcITed... I had heard on the radio that kosy 106.5 was doing a photo contest to win a trip for 4 to Disneyland... I first thought, hmm... I should do that! Then, my Dad said you should put your kids on they would win; (he's partial to his grand kids ), So I did it I went and put them online... It took me a while to figure it all out and do everything electronically, signature and all but the computer issues bug me  and I will do whatever I can to be able to figure something out- Same as with blogging and setting it up; I am still trying to figure out how to do more on my blog.. SO far no luck.

Anyway, when my kids #34 were finally on the website there were a good amount of cute kids on there... When I checked it later one.. WOW- there were over 200 cute kids on the site. I thought nope, no way.. Not that my kids are cute but that's a lot of votes or a lot of begging etc. to do..This as you know has been a terrible year for my ENTIRE Family. Were all still trying to come to grips with the loss of my brother, it has been TERRIBLE.- to say the LEAST.

For example tonight my cute 4 year old was listening to her i-pod.. I went downstairs for some ice water and all of a sudden I hear her just crying away I told Shawn it's Bryhn and when she cries like that it's because she's missing Trent. I ran upstairs and took her ipod off and wow the tears fell, then my tears fell... I try SO hard to not be SO emotional because I don't want my kids to be so sad all the time. So, we cried together... Then started my 6 year old, she was crying and hugging me telling me "Mom it's ok", I just said " I really Miss Trent and just want to see him again" , Danica said "Mom, if you let him you will be able too... WOW! I then cried some more. Death is SO hard for me to grasp I miss Trent's licks, his bouncing back and forth on the couch, his laughing so hard he snorts, pulling the cats tail, begging Jer Jer for a ride, stories my dad would tell him, MY HECK I miss SO much about him.. I miss seeing him in his wheelchair pulling the ball up from the ground with his long fingers onto his chair to bounce across the street to Jake and Sarah's.

To be honest with you I FEEL TOTALLY JIPPED (SP?)  OUT and for SO many reasons...hopefully with in the next year we can come up with money for his headstone. It just stinks rotten socks without him. I asked Danica if she has seen him at school lately and she said "No, I have just been pretending", I asked why are you pretending.... She said well, because he has not visited me in a while; He might just think it's because I am ok and he told me to be ok.. (if that does not melt your heart). So, us 3 girls were up here just sobbing away, Danica cried so hard she ran to the bathroom and thru up... I knew the I had to calm us all down..

Ok, off track sorry- So I asked all on my e-mail acct's and on face book to please vote for  my girls... I would often say #34... I am sure I became annoying at times.. Well, yesterday was the last day to vote..so, I decided yesterday morning to see if they posted anything on the website..WOW.. I was dumb founded, WE WON... Thanks to my friends and my Family and my Facebook friends.. WOW, I cannot say Thank You enough. I am glad  and thankful for this trip: Thanks Kosy 106.5 for giving us this opportunity!! We also won tickets to the Diseny on Ice Princess Classic So with that said- I express my Thanks to those of you who took the time to vote, I apologize for my annoyance, thanks face book friends and my Family..

Happy States!!!!

Happiest U.S. states are wealthy and tolerant

Utah tops list, followed closely by Washington and Minnesota, study shows

Here are the top 10 states and their average well-being scores (out of a possible 100 points):

• Utah: 69.2
• Hawaii: 68.2
• Wyoming: 68
• Colorado: 67.3
• Minnesota: 67.3
• Maryland: 67.1
• Washington: 67.1
• Massachusetts: 67
• California: 67
• Arizona: 66.8

Want to be happier? You may need to move- click here....

When I saw this article it never said anything about Utah in the heading.. It just said you were happy if you lived in the state of Hawaii, so out of curiousity I thought I would check out Utah and where they listed.. Sure enough WE ARE number 1... Hmm, Wow: I was surprised.. What do you think?

Sunday Sabbath- Fort Hood..

Today I wanted to do my Sunday Post on the most recent events of Fort Hood.. It has really been waying on me every time I read the news or check online.. 2 of the young men were here from my own State- though it was close to home... it really was "close to home", I feel so sad for the families who lost  a loved one. It's scary to say that no matter where you are at- You are never safe.

I heard one of the women talking saying that her husband was in Iraq.. Here they have been worrying about him and then this shooting happens in there own area- now her husband is worrying about them here in the states. I cannot express my gratitude and thankfulness to those who serve our country, who serve US.. My prayers go out to those of us in the United Stats as well as those serving in other countries. I truly hope that this was not an act based off his religion.. I truly pray that it was not done because of him being Muslim. We need to always remember to respect other's religion and choices.. You do not have to agree but remember to be respectful of others..

Please as you go through out the work try and remember who you are and what you stand for. Try to respect someone this week no matter what they believe.