My Beautiful Girls...

My Beautiful Girls...
Danica and Bryhn

Monday, June 29, 2009

What is GoInG On!!!

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I have recieved many phone calls and e-mails asking me what is going on with Trent. Well here is a short update: Trent is still in ICU, he is doing ok- that is about the best I can say.. He has just recently in the past few days started to open his eye's and that is a big deal to us all. Last week they did take him back in and he did have to get 2 more drains put in the outside of his lungs and another drain inside of his liver.. They say the abscess was bigger then before.
So, now the mystery is! Why is he still fevering?? That we have yet to know. Were still working on this one. My Mom and Brother Jeremy go up in the mornings until about 2 or 3 and then me and my Dad take our turns from that time until we get kicked out for shift change at 7. Shift change goes from 7 to 8:30. Thanks for all the visitors, Cassidy Thanks for the darling card, it means so much to be surrounded by people who REALLY care. Thanks for the many prayers within our own religion as well as outside of our religion.
Trent is fighting.. Hopefully our month long stay will start to wind down.. I will post more as I know, It's really hard to post stuff and sometimes better to do so after, nobody really does understand the heartache and stress this is but WE LOVE TRENT.. He is so awesome and WE ARE BLESSED to have him in our lives.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Do YoU ReMeMbEr ThE TiMe!!!!

I had to post these pictures, with the passing of a great legend Michael Jackson I will never forget how much I LOVED to watch him perform and was SO excited when I got my Michael Jackson Barbie, the glove, the socks- it had it all.. My brother's were probably thinking... "Not another Barbie", I was the queen of Barbie's in fact I would probably still be playing with them if I did not have to grow up...
These were the days, me with my cute Brother's Dustin and Jeremy!!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Man in the Mirror.....

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MICHAEL JACKSON
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Ok, I am really not sure what the heck is going on this week.
I know that we all anticipated that Farrah Fawcett would eventually
pass away with her cancer but I really try to believe that one can actually fight a fight
and survive-
I atleast try and root for them and rally around them
As I sat in the hosptital with my Dad,
taking our turn to sit with my sweet brother
I recieved a text from my Aunt letting me know that Michael Jackson had died.
WHAT- Michael Jackson has ALWAYS been one of my favorite...
Between him and Whitney Houston I was so determined that one day I would be meeting
one or both, the closest I have come is to Whitney Houston's dancers,
Got there autograph and gave them my letter to
Whitney- So sad she has never responded (like she would).
So, yesterday brought such saddness to my world.
One for the fact that my brother has been in ICU for a month today, not a fun anniversary to be celebrating,
then to hear Farrah Fawcett had passed away and now the
KING OF POP- So, Sad.. I will never forget listening and Dancing to his wonderful
wonderful music. My best friend in Middle/High School Nanette Belka
ALWAYS LOVED Janet Jackson- she was such a good dancer,
there were so many good times around the Jackson music.
I will never forget the Michael Jackson Barbie I had asked for along with his records and Whitney Houston's records..
Such a sad day in music and entertainment, I am still in shock that MJ has passed away,
Rest in Peace Michael Jackson- may YOU finally find your spot and be ok with it..

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Houston........Here WE come.......

I CANNOT WAIT.... THE WAIT IS ALMOST OVER....
Ok, So my FAVORITE singer in the world is Whitney Houston- most people who know me know that... So, as you know she has been "out" of the limelight for a while, well guess what- she is BACK.. WoooHooo!! September 1, 2009- is her RELEASE date of her new album that has been named and released as of TODAY- "I LOOK TO YOU", I am excited and could not be more on the count down then anyone-

An Angel has recieved her Wings!!

Farrah Fawcett
Farrah Fawcett was An ICON!!!!
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Today while watching my favorite soap- The Young and The Restless there was breaking news that Farrah Fawcett had passed away... I felt sad and yet comfort for her! I cannot imagine how one's body has to deal with SO many types of medications and pain, as I watch Trent fight for his life and as I have watched other's fight there way to live but fought so hard that death going to the other side was SO much better.. Farrah fought the fight for a few years and I bet those few years were not easy and pain free.
I hope she has the comfort she deserves, Thanks Farrah for doing what you could to have patients rights respected.. It was so sad to watch her on vido not to long ago displaying what it was she was going through and how much she fought... Though I may not have agreed with EVERYTHING she did in life, I sure loved her.. I will NeVeR forget my LoViNg to watch ChArLiEs AnGeLs!!! I LOVED this show, I will never forget me and my 2 childhood friends Erin Treseder and Sarah Johnson on our bikes playing Charlies Angels- those were some good times in my life and I would not have had Charlie's Angel's fun times if it were never on.. 62 is such a young age- these things remind me over and over of what is important in life.. As I watch other's who worry so much about the Nice car, THE BIG house- the materialstic items that REALLY DO not matter....
Each time I make my way to the hospital and see my brother who is disabled lying there fighting for every breath and here many of us sit and worry about what brand of clothing were going to wear and drop a $100 for a pair of pants (I do not do that)... but I am sure I am guilty of many other things that Trent would want in his life.. He could not be happier for the life he has been given-- I hope to be able to say the same when it's all said and done..
With respect to Farrah and her Family- Rest in Peace and may you all have comfort at this time..

Sunday, June 21, 2009

HaPpY FaThErS DaY!!!

How Father's Day began.............
Sonora Dodd, of Washington, first had the idea of a "father's day." She thought of the idea for Father's Day while listening to a Mother's Day sermon in 1909.

Sonora wanted a special day to honor her father, William Smart. Smart, who was a Civil War veteran, was widowed when his wife died while giving birth to their sixth child. Mr. Smart was left to raise the newborn and his other five children by himself on a rural farm in eastern Washington state.

After Sonora became an adult she realized the selflessness her father had shown in raising his children as a single parent. It was her father that made all the parental sacrifices and was, in the eyes of his daughter, a courageous, selfless, and loving man. Sonora's father was born in June, so she chose to hold the first Father's Day celebration in Spokane, Washington on the 19th of June, 1910.

President Calvin Coolidge, in 1924, supported the idea of a national Father's Day. Then in 1966 President Lyndon Johnson signed a presidential proclamation declaring the 3rd Sunday of June as Father's Day. President Richard Nixon signed the law which finally made it permanent in 1972.

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What Makes A Dad

God took the strength of a mountain, The majesty of a tree, The warmth of a summer sun, The calm of a quiet sea, The generous soul of nature, The comforting arm of night, The wisdom of the ages, The power of the eagle's flight, The joy of a morning in spring, The faith of a mustard seed, The patience of eternity, The depth of a family need, Then God combined these qualities, When there was nothing more to add, He knew His masterpiece was complete, And so, He called it ... Dad

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Happy Father's Day to my Wonderful Husband Shawn, To my Great Dad and to my brother's Dustin and Jeremy.. Though Jer is not a Father he is an AWESOME brother and uncle.. Thanks for all our support with Trent at such a hard time. Love you dads in our lives. Happy Father's Day to Shawn's Dad- Though we do not get to see him much we wish you a Happy Holiday as well..

Saturday, June 20, 2009

I Have Faith....

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This week has been a long week and I am hoping to be able to post more about it when I actually have a little bit more time. This week has been stressful in SO many levels, many questions with Trent seemed to have gone unanswered and the stress levels of each one of us has become more aware. One thing I can say I have not lost is Faith, I really have Faith in the way it is right now- I feel like it is going to be ok. I am greatful for a new day each day that I awake- somedays seem to be not as great as other's but after the loss of our little one's it seems that Faith is really the only one thing I can rely on.
I am truely greatful for the contacts that I have in my life and for the wonderful friendships I have across the street and next door. I have said it before but I truely live by 2 of the MOST amazing women that I know. As we reflect on Day 23 with Trent in STICU and feel so helpless I feel blessed to just be able to be in the same room as him when I get the oppurtunity to be at the hospital... Trent is seriously the MOST AMAZING person that has taught our family SO much as well as those who have come in contact with him. It is just SO sad to be up at the hospital where you see SO much pain and suffering and sadness, it's hard to be in any spot on that floor knowing that there is hurt and a trial for someone else to go through- I feel sad for the medical staff for only being able to know Trent as a patient lying there in bed, they do not know the Trent that has such a fun sense of humor and the love of life that many of US take for granted. It's hard to hear at the hospital how amazing it is that he has lived to be 26 years with him being born at 26 weeks premature.. As if WE don't know were LUCKY - we do not see it as LUCK, we see it has a blessing..
As more tests become relivant with the unexplained reason why Trent is non responsive as he should be please pray for strength for my Family.. Please pray for my parents, you can ONLY imagine how draining it is: They as well as my brother Jeremy spend atleast 12 hours a day at the hospital w/o sleep at times or eating. Thanks for the WONDERFUL visitors. I know me and My mom had such a GREAT time with Vicki Linton coming up- she is just such a fun and wonderful lady and just sitting and chatting for hours really makes a long day go by fast! Thanks to Tiffany Caton as well, I love Tiff and am SO glad she has been able to make time to come and visit- she is still the same fun Tiff we have loved forever... Thanks again for my facebook friends, I love you guys your so wonderful to pray for us and put Trent's name in at the temple.. I really have been blessed with amazing facebook friends... Thanks Jen and Christina, Brook S. , Mary Ann, Britni, Lynnette, Chelle , Jan, Amy for watching my kids for the constant calling and checking up on my sanity and for just being great friends that truely care about my situation and the love you have for Trent as well...!! Thanks Blogger friends for the cards and love you have generated..
Like I said more information will come forth please hang in there with me as I take my time to really talk about it..

Sunday, June 14, 2009

The RollerCoaster Ride...

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It sure has been a LONG week.. It seems like it has been such a draining one in SO many ways as well. I like other's I am sure are trying to understand the situation that took place in Southern Utah in regards to Brian Cardall. Though I have some connection by knowing his sister in law and brother, I know that if I did not have a connection I would be feeling the same way. I am upset by it, I have my own family member who has suffered a mental illness her entire life. I have my disabled brother Trent who has melt downs and it takes more then 49 seconds to calm him down and we do not use a taser to do so. There has been many times where I have heard of deaths with tasers and even then I did not understand.. With this story it makes me more angry and upset! More and more our community lacks skills when working with the disabled, Mentally ill and the elderly. It seems we have become a society that moves forward with force before we talk it down... I hope I can come to grips with this because my heart just aches for the Cardall Family, they have so much going on in there life and this just affects the rest of us as a community as well... Better technique and skill MUST be done, but why did it have to come to the point of taking an amazing man's life? I just don't get it.
This situation with Trent is really starting to get to us all emotionally, physically and mentally- we can tell he is depressed and for sure I cannot blame him. HE SHOULD NOT BE THERE! His stats are good but many times he has failed the breathing test, so his vent cannot come off, it's frustrating we pray for his recovery and have faith that it will happen. We as a Family know that we have been truly blessed with 26 years of Trent in our lives, If you don't have a Trent it's a sad story for you. I do not understand how people out there do not have a love for disabled.. I feel like I have been the luckiest sister to have been blessed with such an awesome person! Trent has taught me SO much about unconditional love as well as compassion. I really truly do not think the world knows just how much our Family LOVES this kid.. He has a piece of us as well we have a piece of him.. It's now this way for my children and for my nephew and nieces and Sister in law Stephanie and husband Shawn. This is hard for all of us equally, we all hurt we hate to see him with the tube in his mouth and coughing the way he is.. Shawn was able to give him a nice blessing and I feel so fortunate that I have a wonderful husband who is SO well with his words.
Trent, wow- your just such an amazing person and we know that our Heavenly Father loves us enough to allow you to be in our homes and allow us to be able to take care of you. Please continue to pray out next step is possibly a tracheotomy though it sounds like something hard were more then willing to do what we can to get him back home. Thanks SO much for the visitors- it has been SO great to get back in contact with Tiffany C. and it was so wonderful for Terilyn and Vicki to come and visit- it makes you realize how much you miss and love these wonderful people.. Trent has been blessed with amazing company.. I am such a lucky person to have such an awesome brother.. I want EVERYONE to know it..
Today, was so hard- I was able to talk with a girl and her grandmother about her Mother who is on the same floor who's mom had swine flu- they were saying goodbye to her today, she was 47: what a young age, and so many people say not to be worried... hmmmm! after there story I am worried and I felt such heart ache for this family, enough that I cried with there family without even knowing them. The Floor Trent is on is SO hard to be on! It seems left and right there is someone who has left this earthly life!! I feel like I am in a different world and then start to wonder about life.. I hope when all is said and done I can get back on my feet and be the Mom I wanted to be.. This has been draining and just when I thought I had no tears left. Last year I went through the loss of a baby as well as the year before and this year we have the situation with Trent and the fact that both my Grandma Stevens and Grandma Veenendaal are up against life issues. I pray I can have the strength with all of this.
One thing, I do have Faith and I do feel comfort!! Thanks again for all your messages through e-mail, face book, phone calls and visits: I appreciate those of you who have watched my kids, what lifesavers: Thanks for the MANY of you who have not hesitated to come and get them, with a few of you a couple of times just doing it. I have a hard time accepting help, I am used to being the one giving it. Many hugs and loves to you all= now let's hope for a better week and my prayers go to the Cardall Family and for the wife and daughter who have lost there husband and son

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Someday we will Understand the meaning:

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Son of KSL editorial director dies after being tased by police By John Hollenhorst WASHINGTON COUNTY -- A 32-year-old man died Tuesday afternoon after he was tased by a Hurricane police officer. Brian Cardall is the son of KSL's Editorial Director Duane Cardall. He and his wife, who is six months pregnant, were traveling south on State Road 59 just outside of Hurricane after visiting his family in Salt Lake City. According to his wife, Cardall, who has a recent history of mental illness, was having an episode that prompted them to pull over to medicate. Once stopped, Cardall got out of the vehicle and began to run down the road. His wife called 911. Not long after, she found out he had been tased and was unresponsive. CPR was administered on scene. Cardall was taken to the Dixie Regional Medical Center where he was pronounced dead. The Washington County Sheriff's Office is investigating. In a press release on its website, the Sheriff's office writes: Police and medical personnel responded to a call for assistance with an agitated subject on State Route 59 this afternoon in Washington County. During the incident, a Hurricane City Police Officer deployed a taser and the subject lost consciousness. The subject was treated within moments by EMS personnel, but was pronounced dead after being transported to the hospital. Cardall was a doctoral candidate in biology at Northern Arizona University. In a statement his family said, "Brian is a wonderful son, brother, father, and husband who loved being with people. He was full of personality and wanted to make a difference in this world. He was working on his PhD in Molecular Ecology at Northern Arizona University. He loved being in the outdoors and with his daughter Ava and beautiful wife Anna. We will miss Brian but are comforted by our faith."
Yesterday seemed to be a good day all around: me and the girls met with Lynnette and Eden and went to lunch at our favorite place "the pizza place", where my kids seemed to think Lynnette is the queen of quarters: The kids always seem to have a blast together, though it seems Lynnette and I never have enough time to just chat. We made our way over to the Aquarium and it was so much fun, the kids could roam and do whatever- we had such a fun day: Bryhn kept calling the stingrays "x-rays".. I love little kids they are just so tender and loving and have the funnest sayings.
It was a good day- Trent had been extibated (the vent was taken off), he also had both drains one to his liver and one to his lung taken off~ life was once again starting to settle. I was able to go up to the hospital and Danica went to her friend Averi's. Little did I know what event in life would come next.
As I was driving home from the hospital from seeing Trent, I had my 4 year old Bryhn asleep in the car- I was listening to KSL News Radio as I do all the time, then came on the radio about Brian Cardall and I knew then he was Paul's brother because of Eden's Birthday party- I remember meeting both Brian and his Wife and daughter Ava: Ava was a tiny little one. Anyways, when I heard what happened I lost it: here I was with Lynnette today and she was so concerned about my brother and his situation.
Lynnette is such a WONDERFUL women and I have so much love and respect for her so this loss has affected me in so many ways. I tried to call her but no answer and I was not expecting her too.. I was just in such shock. I pray for this wonderful family, this is such a hard situation for all to understand. I pray for his brother Paul - he is on the waiting list for a heart transplant and I hope the stress of this does not affect the way things go for him: Please visit his website; http://mytricuspidatresia.blogspot.com/
I have wracked my brain so many times trying to understand the need for tasers in the circumstances of this situation, I was not there so I do not understand but from what the news media is saying I am not really sure that I believe the taser should have been used.
Do tasers cause you to have a heart attack?
For someone with a mental illness would the medications they might be on affect how the taser will be on your body?
What other ways can be done to treat the mentally ill and the disabled in this situation?
Is it neccassary?
I would like your feedback.
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TRENT UPDATE:
I am still in disbelief: Trent was doing pretty good yesterday and we were looking up with this whole situation. Until I saw my phone and my caller id said my mom's cell and the hospital at 1 am: Trent had to be reintibated: this means he is back on the ventilator and on 100 % oxygen. UNREAL- it seems like one nightmare after another. I am trying to have Faith with this situation but there are SO many reasons he should NOT be in this situation. Please continue to pray, I am making my way to the hospital today- I am so numb to every situation that I am not sure how to handle anything. Trent, hang in there buddy. I am just not sure what else to say, my heart has such a void in it. I will keep you updated.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

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Extibation took place!!

I think I can vouch for ALL of the family and say "I am TIRED"... so extibation (vent out) did not happen yesterday.. Trent was put through more tests AKA- cat scan, heart Doppler for blood clots etc. Lets just say there was a number done on him. In kind words I will say it has NOT been one of the better events at a hospital~ not that hospitals are fun but when you go in for one thing and you come out with another issue life gets a little tiring around the white coats and green scrubs- no offense to any of you who I love and respect, we have had excellent care but also below the scale care. Enough said and maybe at a later time I can really expand on the the details. So, I went to the hospital at about 12am- my Mom had not had her heart med etc. and this is not a good thing, my mom also needs to take care of herself and these situations really make me nervous- my MOM is the BEST advocate for Trent and I can guarantee she would be one for you if you wanted to take her along.. So, Jer and I sent her and my Dad along there way to get some rest: on there way out they were encountered with a horrible event. A women who was in her early 60's was trying to get into the building and as I learned going at midnight there is NO way of getting in.. My dad had to come down from the floors and stand at the door for the automatic door to open. So, my Mom and Dad put there things in the car and asked if they could help her- she was distraught, she was just called back to the hospital because her husband had died.. They called to tell her to come back: what a joke, they tell her to come back and give her no way in... Luckily there were staff coming out on smoke break (sorry to be excited about there smoking), she was able to get into the building. Now if that does not tug at your heart strings I am not sure what will. Jer and I sat there the whole night by Trent's side- his anxiety was SO terrible for what happened during the day. I finally broke out of the hospital at 5am so I could get at least 2 hours of sleep so I can then be with my kids. I was able to go to the hospital this morning, my Dad had called and told me that the Vent had been extibated- oh was that great news or what.. SO glad to have Some good news our way. My Dad is so great to watch my kids when I go up there and allow me time to be able to be with Trent.. It's hard to be torn between everyone. Trent was SO anxious and so far out on anxiety- we finally got him calmed down. He still has the oxygen and he still had to be suctioned out- we have all taken that role over now. He did get both drains taken out so this is good. The PICC line will stay in for at least 6 weeks with heavy doses of antibiotics. Trent your a trooper and were so sorry you have had to go through this. Danica was at her friend Averi's so Bryhn was all I had to deal with, my Dad took her to the fountain and down to the cafeteria: When I came out so we could leave she was sitting at the volunteer desk she was pretending to be looking at the computer with pictures of Trent and on the phone talking to him. She is such a sweetie and both kids have been SO worried about Trenty.. Let's pray for more days of good news. Thanks EVERYONE who has visited we appreciate your love and concern.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Tips to avoid the H1N1

The CDC has recommendations for avoiding the H1N1 flu. This flu was first called Swine Flu but has since been referred to by its scientific name. Regardless of what it is called, there are some steps to avoid catching it we all should remember.

  • Stay informed. Local newscasts are good but the Center for Disease Control has up to date information on their website or you can call them at 1-800-CDC-INFO to receive the updates. Schools are watching closely so read all the bulletins that they send home.
  • Coughing and sneezing seems to be the main way it spreads person-to-person.
  • Cover your nose and mouth when sneezing with tissue that is promptly discarded into the trash.
  • Wash your hands often or use hand sanitizer often.
  • Avoid touching eyes, nose and mouth as germs enter the body this way.
  • Stay home if sick. Avoid contact with others at the first sign of illness.
  • Listen for and follow all public health advice. Contact your physician at the first signs of illness.
  • Reinforce in children how to effectively wash their hands. Children's hands touch everything, it seems, and little one's often forget just how much soap and water it takes to really clean hands.
  • Find healthy ways to deal with stress and anxiety. These weaken the immune systems.

Common sense ways to limit our exposure to the flu virus are prudent at this time. A little extra effort might mean staying healthy and is worth the trouble.

What to celebrate in the month of June..

June 12th * The Baseball was Invented In 1839. * Magic Day June 13th * Weed Your Garden Day June 14th * Flag Day * "Pop Goes the Weasel" Day June 15th * Fly A Kite Day June 16th * National Fudge Day June 17th * Eat Your Vegetables Day June 18th * International Picnic Day June 19th * Juneteenth June 20th * Ice Cream Soda Day June 21st * Father's Day * First Day of Summer June 23rd * National Pink Day June 24th * U.F.O. Day June 25th * Eric Carle's Birthday June 26th * National Chocolate Pudding Day * Toothbrush Invented in 1498. June 29th * Camera Day

icu-DaY 11

Ok, here we are on day 11: Trent is still on the vent- hopefully getting closer to coming off of it. Yesterday was a stressful day: Trent went in and had to have his right lung drained, they have atleast drained off a liter of fluid from his lung and he now has a drain. So to add to poor Trent's drains he now has a drain from his lung and a drain from his liver~ Trent is such a fighter and it's SO frustrating to see him go through this. 3 years ago when he was in the hospital it was horrible, we had not come that close to losing him since he was really small and to think that we have had to witness this again 3 years later it scares me, nobody should go through this much pain. Shawn and I and our girls spent most of the day up to the hospital yesterday, it is so hard because I want to be there with him but with my kids it makes it impossible to be there as much as I wish to be. It was sad to see other people there with there family members and sit out in the waiting room with tears coming down because there loved one did not make it. The floor that Trent is on is SO critical~ it just plain sucks to be honest with you and I hate it, I hate that my parents and Jer have to be drained: I worry about the stress of it all. My parents have done such wonders taking care of Trent, I really do not think any of you know; It's so much easier being the person on the outside looking in. So, today while Bryhn was at her summer preschool Danica and I head out to go to the hospital... I was able to spend a few hours with Trent, I loved that Trent is still inside there and fighting as well as he can. He did get upset a few times and was so emotional with the vent in his mouth~ i hope it will be something that comes out soon.. For the most part I believe that things are going in the right direction: Mom, Dad and Jeremy LOVE that saying; Ha ha! It has been a draining few days I think of Brad who I went to High School and feel so bad that such a wonderful person has taken his own life and may never know how much people cared about him. We have been so appreciative of all the prayers that we have recieved and the well wishes: I will post more as the day goes by and hopefully pictures of Trent with out the vent soon....

WERE MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Update on Trent....

What a week it has been. I am SO drained so I cannot even imagine what my parents and brother Jeremy are feeling... Thos of you who have been in the hospital and have had to spend time either in the NICU or any other kind of ICU you know exactly what it is like to be on a roller coaster ride: and it is NOT the fun ride. My emotions have been high.
I honestly cannot remember what the days are or when it is that I have been to the hospital. I know I was not able to get up there yesterday and it was frustrating for me. Thursday I took my kids and we went to the hospital and it is just not a fun place for kids that are 6 and 4 years old to hang out. My poor kids have been so emotional with this and really want to see Trent, they don't understand why they cannot see him if they are related.. So, I was back in the room and I just lost it, seeing Trent lay there helpless with really NO response, his resperations high and his oxygen having to be turned up again since they suctioned him out~ It stressed his poor body out. He was SO swollen. They finally gave him some more lasiks but it to such a long time to calm him down. He was shaking and we were all lost for words. Nobody will probably ever understand the love we have for Trent. He is our velcro and we have been STUCK to him for 26 years- to have that stripped away we will not know what to do with ourselves. So, I had to leave because I could not stop crying, my Dad was with my kids and Jeremy's friend David Frestion: I could not talk to my Dad so he just went to the room. David is such a great friend and we appreciate him taking the time to come and see Trent and visit with us. Thanks David. Also, our friend Sandy Clayburn has been such a wonderful support; we have LOVED your visits and phone calls. Sandy has been such a great friend to my Mom and we appreciate it!! My Mom had come out into the waiting room and told me that Trent was now stable and that it was a horrible day for him. Earlier that day they had someone come in and tell them that Trent's kidney was going and that he would need to have dialysis right away~ ok, life sucks about now; what do you say to that. So, the guy came back about 10 minutes later and told them he had the wrong information that he was not the one who needed the dialysis. Ok, that was not fun at all... So, what has been going on? Yesterday Trent did pretty good: Trent had to get blood they are still working on the bowels; They took the Picc line out and started a new line. They gave him a bubbly bed so he will not get bed sores, he has done good to come of of some of the meds. We were hoping the vent was going to come off of him yesterday and that did not happen. I woke up this morning since we were told that it would probably happen today, I got up to the hospital my parents and Jeremy were already there: I thought for sure by the time I got there that the vent would be off, that was not the case; though Trent looked more pink today, he was also a little awake and moving his hands.. it was nice to start being able to see the Trent we knew.. We waited a while but nothing happened with the vent, I took my Mom home so she could get some rest. Well the vent might come off tomorrow, time will tell! Please keep praying and again thanks for everything..

E-mail comments:

From my Aunt Sonja:

How is Trent doing today? I have been thinking a lot about him and your family and some of the events that have happened in his life. It makes one feel so helpless sometimes to see someone struggling and not be able to do much for them. Please let me know.

How is Trent doing today? It seems like there are a lot of ups and downs when he is ill and I am sorry he has to get ill. He must be one really special spirit

I have also had SO many comments on facebook, I will post them at another time!!

Friday, June 5, 2009

FUN FACTS TO IMPRESS THE KIDS:

I got this information from the Parents June 2009 magazine and loved the information so I thought that I would share it with you bloggers. LADYBUGS:Photobucket Wings beat 85 times per second. If one lands on your hand, consider yourself scentsational: Ladybugs have organs on their feet to help them smell. STINKBUGS:Photobucket Watch out: Like the skunk, the stinkbug sprays foul-smelling substances in self-defense. WHIRLIGIG BEETLES: (sorry no photo) They live in rivers and streams and has divided eyes that allow it to see above and below the surface at the same time. WATER SPIDERS:Photobucket Spend their entire lives under water in an air bubble they've spun from silk. BORNEO WALKING STICK:Photobucket The longest insects. It's been known to grow more than 22 inches long! ISOPODS:Photobucket Also known as potato bugs, roly-poly bugs- rolled up into a small ball when disturbed. ANTS:Photobucket Can lift up to 50 times and drag up to 30 times their weight. And their brains are the largest in the animal kingdom, in proportion to the size of their bodies. HERCULES BEETLE:Photobucket About the size of a mouse, the beetle can carry 850 times its own body weight, making it the world's strongest creature.

ABC's...

ABC's of Me

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A - Age: 33
B - Bed size: King
C - Chore you hate: All: ha! ha!.
D – Dessert: Oatmeal Carmelita E - Essential to start your day: Contacts in the eye's..
F - Favorite flower: Love ALL flowers. G- Gold or Silver: Both
H - Height: 5'2": Yep I am SHORT!!
I - Instruments you play(ed): YIKES, none!.
J - Job you had in high school: Little Caeasar's, tanning salon
K - Kid(s): on earth 2 girls Danica (6) Bryhn (4). 3 boys above: Ashton, Canyon and Christian Asthon would have been 5, Canyon 2 and Christian 1. L - Lunch spots: Bajio
M - Mom's Name: Gloria- I love my MoM
N - Newest item bought: Mug from the hospital, isn't that so exciting!
O - Overnight hospital stay: Radical Thymectomy, Emergency c-sections X2, Birth to my stillborn son.!
P - Pet Peeve: how people treat others, they are nice to you in person because they think they have too, then act like they do not know you. Q- Quote from a movie: i do not have one.
R - Right or left handed: Right
S - Siblings: 3 awesome brothers, Dustin, Jeremy, Trent
T - Time you wake up: 7:00am .
U - Underarm deodorant?: Secret.
V - Very surprising fact: Everything about me is a surprise ...
W - Ways you run late: I will have terrible anxiety if I am late.
X - X-rays you've had: my teeth, abdomen, chest, foot, I cannot remember them all
Y - Yummy food you make: meatloaf.
Z - Zoo animal: all animals, I love to go to San Diego Zoo~ they are the best..

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Rest in Peace Brad!

Brad was such a WONDERFUL person. I had the honors of dating him in High School~ We sure had fun times together, he was such a joker, a funny guy!! I am sure Jeppson is up there with him joking with one another. The world has lost an AMAZING man. I am so sorry for his family and for his little kids. Your life is never the same when you lose a child. I am sure there reunion is wonderful. May you find comfort Buford... I will never forget you driving around in the brown wagon. I will post pictures another time. It has been an emotional day~ Trent did not have a great day at the hospital, I am drained in SO many ways. Life is hard. I just pray for Brad's little kids and pray for comfort to there Mom that she may have the strength to carry on.........

YOUR A GREAT ONE BEE's... I will miss chatting on facebook, it was great to be back in contact with you again.


Bradford Adam Beesley
Bradford Adam Beesley 'Buford' Our kind, thoughtful, loving son, brother, husband and father returned home to his Heavenly Father June 2, 2009. Bradford was born August 8, 1974 in Salt Lake City to Brad and Patty Beesley. Bradford was a devoted, caring father to his three sons and daughter. Our big brother was an amazing protector, our foundation and example for good. He guided us through life's experiences and was always there to help us. Brad graduated from Jordan High in 1993 and the U of U in 2000. Faithfully he served an LDS mission in Pittsburg, PA and in various church callings. Brad was an Eagle Scout. He was always looking for ways to help others and was a faithful friend. On August 27, 1997 he married Shannon Pendelton in the Salt Lake Temple. Bradford was a hardworking, successful business man who helped to grow his family's business, Back to Basics. He was the driving force in acquiring a new company, Candle Warmers Etc. He loved working with his brothers, brother-in-law and sister in growing the new family business together. Bradford's joy was his family and he provided well for them. He adored his little boys, Sam and Jack. They were truly his 'buddies'. He dearly missed his eldest son Bradford Ethan. Bradford definitely had a soft spot for his sweet baby girl, Brynn. She was daddy's little girl, his princess. His happiest moments were with his wife and kids taking trips to the bookstore, dad's and donut's, bike riding, movies, motorcycle riding, IHOP, many exploring adventures at the cabin and singing the "Beesley Boys" song. Besides his family, golfing and reading were his passions. His mother taught him the joy of reading. He won a contest for reading 100 books in second grade. He loved going to the gym with his brothers and sister and delighted in winning the "muscle contest". He was so considerate and sensitive to his mom and two sisters. All of his nieces and nephews loved their Uncle Brad. He spent hours wrestling with the boys and giving kisses and hugs to the girls. BRADFORD, WE WILL FOREVER MISS YOU IN OUR "BEES SQUEEZE." Will be missed by his sweetheart Shannon, sons Samuel Ethan, Jackson Adam, and daughter Brynn Leah, his parents Brad and Patty Beesley, grandmother Hanna Beesley, siblings Brian K. (Alicia) Beesley, Lindsay Ann (Chris) Barnes, Spencer William (Tori) Beesley, Heather Marie (Brett) Heyland and nieces and nephews. Met with open arms by his son, Bradford Ethan, grandparents Art and Jean Knecht and Bill Beesley. A visitation will be held Saturday, June 6, 2009 from 12:00-1:45 p.m. followed by services at 2:00 p.m. at 11755 S. Highland Drive (2000 E), Sandy. In lieu of flowers a fund for his children will be set up at Zions Bank. Please send condolences and memories to larkinmortuary.com

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Trent end of Night update!

YEP, WERE STILL HERE!!!
After the scare last night I was worried to know anything that was going on.. Since posting information, I was able to go and spend a couple of hours up at the hospital, Thanks to my neighbor Kierstene for watching Danica~ Bryhn is my baby Roo and has to go everywhere I go.
Once we got of the elevator my Dad was sitting in a chair waiting for us.. Thanks SO much Dad for sitting out with Bryhn and taking her to the fountain and giving her the junk food she so loves.
I always feel good after I am in the presents of Trent, though he is not FULLY awake (and this is a good thing the less stress on himself the better). Trent still tried to say hiya. Trent looked pretty good in my eye's today. He is on cpap so this is good news. Though when talking to my mom her concerns were issues with the stomach I am not sure if I understood her fully so I may be a little off on this information. She had said something about his stomach not moving like it should, I am not sure if she is meaning bowel movements or the issue with feedings.
Trent had a few visitor's today~ the Relief Society President sister Sharon Maughn, his Aunt Cindy and Aunt Pam.. Thanks so much for the visits. Aunt Melbanne did go up during shift change but my parents and brother had left. Trent's chest x-ray came back with a little improvement, like I said we will take WHATEVER baby steps we can get. Please keep the prayers coming, I know the power of pray is really helping. Please pray for us and fr my parents. I really worry about my Mom. As if she does not have enough of her own health problems. Thanks Jer for being by his side. Like I said I LOVE MY FAMILY!
So without and hopefully without a set back today was a good day..
I am SO behind on my own Family blog! Info will be posted soon. Thanks again for the sweet thoughts and your prayers.

Tuesday Trent Update

5.5 peep 40% oxygen no changes on his x-ray, so it is good to know when he asperated lastnight it did not worsen his lungs. My Dad said he was comfortable, he is such a good kid! Trent really is a fighter. Please keep praying for him, while your there please pray for my Grandma Veenendaal and my Grandma Stevens... I tell ya, it is crazy in our direction. Hopefully I will be able to go up and see Trent today.. I feel helpless hanging here, Dustin is making his way from Las Vegas 2morrow. I love my Family, STAY STRONG TRENT... Updated info again later.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Too Good to be True!

Well... I just recieved a phone call from my Mom, I guess I should never post anything too soon... My Mom called to tell me that things have changed a bit! I am not sure if I want to say worse or for the not so good, either way it is not the greatest information to hear. She said that they laid Trent flat and he asperated up out of his mouth, they suctioned as much as they could. Her and My Dad and Brother are waiting for the respiratory therapist to come, in this case they will most likely up his oxygen and his peep: it is nerve wracking based off of the fact that the little bit he had in his lungs that were doing well could now be back to day 1. I am SO stressed, confused and really have no idea what to feel think or do. I feel bad for my Family and for Trent, it really is not fair that Trent has to go through all of this. Please keep your prayers coming, they will help SO much.

What day are we on?? Trent's update!!

Today I was able to spend most of the day with Trent Thanks to our Friends Mike and Britni, I am not sure what I would do without there help. Thanks Mike and Britni I really really appreciate your kindness.
I picked my Mom up to go to the Hospital. Trent has had many visitors the past few days: Ard and Jan, My Aunt Jeannie, Uncle Bob Day and Aunt Sonja, Uncle Brad, Sarah, Lisa and Ashley. The Elders Quorum Presidency from my parents ward came and gave Trent a blessing along with one of his Home Teachers: Warren, it was so kind of them to go and see and bless Trent. Also a member of there Bishopric Brother Matsuoka Uncle Mike and today Sandy Clayburn: Trent would LoVe all the visitors..
Jeremy has taken work off he is such a great example, I had no idea he was there until I came into Trent's hospital room and I said, so your taking work off; he said Work will ALWAYS be there! Jer is such a great brother. Dustin is a great brother too and I know he is hating that he is not here. Trent's blood work has come down a bit so that is good it is not where it should be but the baby steps we will gladly take. The Dr. said that when they grew the culture it came out unknown: so they do not know where the infection came from so they are not exactly certain how to treat it. So, they have him on the highest dose of antibiotics.
So, all in all somewhat of a good day and we will take the small steps if that is what it takes for us to have Trent. Trent's oxygen when I left tonight at 5:30 was down to 40%, his peep was at a 9. He is still on the vent and his lungs are still bad and ARDS is still there... they have started him slowly on feedings, I feel bad for him he thrashes when he is somewhat with it and try's to tell us hiya and fights SO hard to talk to us. We do what we can to calm him down.
Trent YOUR amazing, please continue your prayers~ thus far I know they have helped. Thanks for those who have taken time out of there lives to come up and visit. If I get updated information I will post it as well.. Again many many thanks from all YOU facebook Friends as well. You do not know how much I appreciate each of you.